Monday, December 11, 2006
@ 7:29 AM

Tink, its time to break down my character and some events i went thru before i turn 18 next monday. 18years on the earth is not consider long but its not short either, enough to change angel to devil and devil to angel.
In my 18 years of life, went through 2 deaths of my family members. At age of 7, my great grandfather passed away with age of 92. Im still young then and im nt realli sure hw he looks like and i feel then. All i noe is that i still had the mood to fool around with my little cousin and firs time i saw my grandma cried. My dad told me that my great grandfather had 'shifted' house and yes truly indeed, shifting hm to another world beyond our reach. Then next one happened last year, on my bdae, my granduncle died. In terms of blood ties, we are not close but in actual fact, he had been an important part of my childhood. Of course, by then, i knew what death is all about and this time, i cried.
Then in teenage years, grandparents all start to fall ill due to their age. Age is catching up on them. I had seen strands of black hair turning into sliver, jungle turning into blank, no longer as lively as before. Trace of years can be found on everyones' face, including dad n mums. Worries, fear did fill these years and they still did now. I can onli say treasure your love ones before they leave. At the same time, i am oso wondering for how long, can us cousins stay so closely in touch. Will it still happen when the previous generation had all 'shifted' house?
Of course, then it comes to all the separation and betrayals. Faced the firs and hardest betrayal when im 14. This lesson i will never forget and will owas remain as a scar inside me. From then on, my character changed. More complicated, more practical, more serious, more self conscious and its marks the beggining of maturity and growing up.
Real and true frens are realli hard to find in this world. Im lucky to still stay in contact with frens from pri. sch, sec sch and JC. Well, i dont have much frens and a large social circle. But im glad to have them with me around, the truest frens to me. Now studying in poly, May n Enting, i hope we will owas remain that kind of frens even though we may hav e possibility to be separated nxt year. Ups and downs, you will owas have me.
Ok, then here it comes to my character. Seriously speaking, im never feminine enough (though enting did say that im quite lady now) Yup, for nw i do have the 'outside' of a lady but inside im still a mixture. I have the stubborness, the clumsiness, carelessness of guy but oso the emo, the fickleminded, willful, spoilness of gals. Above are e few more obvious traits in me la...haha. You guys cn feel free to add more in. Howeva, still like many of the city folks, im still abit loss and dont realli understand myself well, cos sometimes i still will get angry with myself over some very minor stuff.
Then lets come to relationship. I have yet to taste the sweet n bitter of BGR and recently dunno why, im very keen in finding a handsome boyfriend. Wahaha. Looking for my Mr Right to come by and i realli believe that one day, he will come. My criteria as below:

1. At least 180cm
2. Tanned and strong built (dont mind abit on the skinny side so long as he dont mind my size)
3. Good looking or pleasent looking (Im a superficial gal but i dont wan a superficial guy)
4. Conservative guy
5. Humorous
6. Had opinions of his own
7. Likes freedom and give me freedom
8. Can cook nice dishes for me
9. Caring and protective

And the list goes on and on. But tink this is a super long entry. Hope all of u enjoy life and once again i realli thanz those who had made my life. You know who you guys are. Love you all. Night