Tuesday, July 18, 2006
@ 10:05 AM

Children are nonsensical animals and my brother got into trouble cos of these nonsensical acts. Haiz, little gals, dunno wat they are thinking. Beat people up jus cos ur BF gana snatch? Ridiculous isnt it? I wonder when dey look back when dey are older, how would dey feel. One more thing, when did JSS teachers becom so useless and vulnerable towards these kinds of things.
Got back PMKT project and yes, we got the highest in class. Lucky our efforts are paid off, if not i cn go bang the wall. Seems like this sem, the projects are going smoothly and are much better. Even Ec which make us go rounds suddenly seems much easier today. At least half completed? Hope we can meet the deadline.
Im confused, tired with things. Sticky situations after sticky situations. Enting suddenly ask me, ' do you still like alan?' Seriously, i dunno how to ans. If i say no, i tink to him, its still smth more than frenship. If i say yes, its much less than that. He still stands a part in my mind but that part is diminishing.... fast.
He came talk to me today. He says ' you seldom disagree with me de.' Mayb im not in the mood cos my parents were having a quarrel jus nw? Or jus that the shadows of the nightmare i got from previous night still lurk in my mind that i got abit irritated?
Someone give me a knock on my head last night, telling me that liking someone is not a crime. Suddenly i realise that what am I scared of actually? All these while, im hiding, pushing, denying the fact that i want him and worse of all scared to let him noe. What issit that is keeping me from doing things? What exactly am i afraid of when everything is not a crime? I dunno and i cnt seems to find the ans. Scared of getting hurt so i shut out every possibility that he actually seems to be interested? I dunno. Realli ired and confused with this mess i have created myself but i tink one day, its gonna be fine.

End of Im tired confused but still going fine.