Thursday, February 22, 2007
@ 8:35 AM

Today is the fifth day of new year, i wish all of u a Happy Chinese New Year and hope that everything goes fine for all of u for the rest of the year. Gong Xi Gong Xi.
Chinese New Year is owas a period of time for frens and families to gather and meet up, this year is oso not an exception. For the firs 3 days of new year, the whole family had been spending time together. However, most of the time is gambling with the kids and i had little time for some chats. Well, i can onli say that, i cannot play black jack this year. I had lost almost 20bucks since new year eve. Budden i can say i gt some luck in mahjong. My luck in mahjong seems to turn for the better. Haha... if is gamble, i would have won loads of money.
Haiz... i can onli say that the atmosphere is getting poorer and poorer each year. For some time i tink that Chinese New Year instead of a traditional festival, its jus another excuse for ppl to meet up, update each other and gamble.
Yesterday had went to my ah yi hse. By rite she cannot hold any celebration this year so she jus invite a couple of us to her hse and have some fun. Some of us played mahjong and some of uss gamble. Haz, i nv noe that playing mahjong is so tiring. After playing for bout 2 hours plus, the four of us is like sooo sooo sooo shack. The outcome of the game is im the onli winner...sha sha sha. Wahaha.
Den today went around to bai nian. Went Jean n Qian Yi hse to bai nian. It had been some time since the four of us last met. Finally cos of this chinese new year, we manage to meet up. After that went for sakae sushi and there we went for KBOx. Initially is wanna watch movie de, budden we had debate on wat show to watch for so long that Kaili cannot afford to wait for us and rush off to her bf hse, so bo bian we quickly decide that KBOX is the best choice. This is oso the firs time i went kbox with them. We sang quite alot of songs and ate quite a lot of tidbit too. Thanx to qianyi bro cos he help us get alot of free drinks and free tidbits den end out we drank like bout 2-3 jug of honey. Wahaha.
Heehee, we had decide to go night safari nxt thurs, den sentosa e following thurs den pulau ubin the next next next thurs. Im sooo looking forward to the outing cos its onli during the holis that we can have so much fun and enjoy company of each other. Ahaha.
Tml going Enting dey all de hse. Hope that it will be fun jus like today. And once again, Gong xi gong xi to all of u. Cheers!

End of Chinese New Year, time for all the gatherings

Tuesday, February 13, 2007
@ 7:28 AM

Time realli flies. 18 year old was once so far away and now i had past 18, reaching for 19. Children hope that they will grow up fast but once they pass a certain age, they actually hope that time will slow down for them. I am one of them and i think, many of you will like it too. How nice if i can ever stay on at 16years old. Howeva, if thats so, isnt that unfair to my parents? Year after year they have to slog for living expenses and im not growing up. I guess, thats the way life is, the younger generation will replace the older generation one day.
I browsed thru some photos today. These photos are taken last year. I had changed, my bro had changed, all my younger cousins had changed. I looked different, but the difference could not be compared with my bro and 2 other younger cousins who are at their puberty age. 3 of them had shook of those baby fats and childlike looks off their face. Now i could not call them kid or children anymore. Once upon time, you and me were at that period. Just one year and they had grew up.
How long will it take my sis, my other younger cousins to reach that stage? How long will it take for me to overcome the fear of growing up? Seriously im not prepared to grow up. I had grown so used to someone providing for me, doting and caring for me. I had grow so used to my family and i cant bear the thought that as time pass, the chances for me to loose them increases. I shudder at the thought of how fast time flies. I shudder at the thought that how soon my youth will turn into maturity. I shudder at the thought of all wild dreams will soon gone and being tied down by the reality of the society.
I had once thought that living the same life for over 40 over years is tiring and boring. I hated doing the same things over again. Life on earth for 18 years had been dynamic but i knew that once it is over 20, everything will remain the same, and my life will be stuck there. Meaningless and Boring.
However, isnt it better for me to admit that im jus an ordinary human being in this small small world, in this small small universe?
Seriously, how pathetic can this world turn children into. Children can have the wildest dream of all, but once theygrew up, they are tied up by all the As n Bs in ur report book, tied down by the stress brought by work. Then one day, we discover that we cnt shake off the restriction brought in by the perception of the world. We are afraid that how we are percieved by others. Are we ugly? Are we pretty? Are we successful? Are we pathetic? How are we doing exactly in the eye of the mudane world?
How i hope, one day i can shake off all these troubles, perceptions and restriction and roam the world. Some people can call it a form of escape from life, but im still struggling with my fate. I sincerely do not want to be tied down by the formulated life most people live. Staying in the office for the rest of my life simply seems too much for me.
Being ordinary isnt my fault, but living in people's expectation is my fault, leading a life i dont want is my fault. I can find a way. I believe so.

End of Time Flies

Tuesday, February 06, 2007
@ 7:36 AM

It had been quite some time since i last blog le, bout one week plus ba. Hmm... since the fahrenheit's autograph session, life had been in a high mood for quite a few days. Heehee. After that follow by a series of shopping for New Year clothes.
Last week, had went orchard with enting may n hui mei. Well, it realli does feel nice n fun shopping with them as u can get more opinion on the things u gonna buy. Ha.. tt day is realli a shopping spree for me as i realli had bought loads of stuff.
Then fri went shopping again with my mum at bugis. Budden before that she gave me a treart at one of the Jap restraunt at Bugis Junction. I can say that the Sashimi is damn nice and fresh. Its not like those normal salmon that you go to any sushi shop to buy. It taste almost like its cooked, and its so Q. After that me n mummy proceed to Double Index and there, mark the end of my new year shopping. All stuff had been bought and im ready for new year.
So far i had bough 1 handbag and a pair of shoes, 2 dress, 2 top and one bottom. Total theres 4 suit for me to wear but e problem is most of em is all back and its kinda bad for me to wear during new year. Ahaha.
Then it should be time to get ready for exams in one week time. But haiz, its so difficult to get started. Wheneva i touch those books and notes, i felt that i had study them numerous times and everything looks so familar to me, feels that no point i read thru again and again.
Then today went town with enting, and her guy and her guy de fren. Haha, shopped around Cine, CK Tangs and Far East Plaza. Finally Enting decide to buy a top at Red2. Woohoo, finally something from there? Thats good. :)
So that will be all for this entry. Valentines is around the corner and i wish all of u happy together with ur valentine. :)

End of Exams & New Year