Sunday, January 28, 2007
@ 7:06 AM

Today is 28.01.07. All fans of Fahrenheit in S'pore had been waiting for this day. The only autograph session in Singapore!
Huimei and her fren, and her fren de frens went there v early at bout 9 plus. According to her, at 9 plus lots of people had been waiting. From the DJ, we had know that since yesterday morning, people had been queuing. OMG, theres so many people la. Anyway it had been quite some time since i heard people queue till like tt. The last time i heard is when 5566 come to S'pore, which is bout 1 0r 2 years back.
I went there via shuttle bus at bout 3. Can consider this is the firs time i went to IMM. When i firs reach there, Im abit lost budden still manage to find my way to HuiMei. I nearly cannot go in cos of the security guard. Haha but luckily i bluff my way thru saying that we actualli went to buy some food and i showed him the proof (the mac huimei n her fren are holding), which in actual fact, i cut queue. Then sit there till bout 5 plus, theres a false alarm that Fahrenheit had reached. Pls la, the coordinator so stupid and nv do their hmk, e autograph session will onli start at 6 lo. Budden everyone v kan choing and stand up. There, the squeezing and sweating starts. I nearly faint lo.
Ahaha...queue queue bout 8 plus to 9 den its my turn. Wahaha, im so overjoyed and abit in daze. All i noe by then is to quickly get all my stuff out and showed it to the coordinators. Finally, i talked to my Husband le!! He signed and said, 'xin ku ni le', so good rite? He actualli noes hw hard issit for us to squeeze n squeeze, somemore squeeze for bout 4 hrs.
By then, my mind went blank. Onli manage to murmur a thank you. I noe it sounds weird la, oso dunno e thank you is for wat. I am awake onli when i saw Jiro. So, i tried to say loudly Jiayou. He looked up and shook my hand. OMG, e smile realli like Xiu Yi lo, blur blur cute cute de. and Guess wat, hes e one who i shook hand shook e longest. Wahaha...
Then all the 3 versions of the CD i bought gt their signature on and i shook hands with all 4 of them. I so xin fu...heehee. Though its v tiring budden still feel that its worth it. My firs time going for these type of things. Wahaha

End of Fahrenheit!!

Wednesday, January 24, 2007
@ 7:08 AM

This had been a dramatic week for me, so many things had happened within these few days that realli make my mind in a whirlwind.
Since last thurs, all the electric appliances had seems to go on a strike, complaining the continuous and ill treatment recieved. My modem is the firs one to go haywire, den follow by my comp den follow by the TV. O god, internet, games and TV! Suddenly, my house was being rip off from all sources of entertainment and the onli thing i can do is to rot around and read storybook, occasionally crowd into my grandparents room to watch my fave tv show. Finally, the TV is back and i can use the comp, though some prob will still occur.
Oya, then thurs saw waichong when im at gym with enting. Haha..guess i reali changed alot these 2 years, cos he cnt even recognize me at the firs glance. Same thing applies to Kai Siang when me n linnet met him on fri at JP. For tt day, im so paiseh that Net come my hse n do nth cos all e things r down n my bro is nt at hm to play mahjong with us.
After tt, some bad n saddist news come along on Mon. Something hit me so hard that it made me cry the whole night. I even lost control of myself in school the next day. I tink i cried for quite sometime before i decide to keep all emotions within me n find my laughter back. Realli paiseh to May n Enting to hear my complains n emotion these few days. U all had tell me that u all dunno hw to console me but a listening ear is enough bcos i could have died keeping all these within me.
A hole in my family life is enough. I once thought that it was so perfect but nw, I felt that my roots is being pulled out by tt whole sad story. Suddenly, i being to search n tink that who i am actually. Budden well, Im still grateful for all the things dey had done and see me as if im their real X. This actually can be a whole new chapter to my life cos im no longer who i am. This had brought me tinking to some issues in life. Without the roots i used to tink i have, am i still me? Or will that affect of being who i am? U guys tell me. Am i still the HuiYing u all had known me all along.
After that today is worse. Nothing can be worst than this. Had a quarrel with Linnet. I realli dunno hw this thing start. We 2 jus somehow seems to blow everything up n there she refused to ans my call and im cursing n swearing under my breath. Initially, im actually quite upset with her when she didn care enough when smth so big had happened to me. Budden i cnt blame her can i? I didn tell her the thing firs and its thru msg, so things can get abit messy. Nw i noe, nt onli me cn be so stubborn n hot temper. Hers too. Actually this thing did affect me for the whole evening. But Everything i tink, is fine nw ba. Heehee.
C, so much had happened these few days. Tink im in a series of bad luck nw. Hope all these will end soon after the worst luck today. So night everyone.

To Net: tink cos u dunno e whole thing tts y u cnt show enough care, tink find one day i will tell u slowly ba. I noe u had ur own problems too. I jus hope that if i cn depend on u if anything happens and u cn throw everything to me when u had ur own fustration too. Though u said that its ok n theres no need to say sorry, but to me, i still feel that i ought too. Im so caught up with my own problem n feel that u too should give me all ur care n attention. Well, kinda childish n willful. Reali so sorry for being so insensitive. Anyway, nw den i realise hw i hate to quarrel with frens, somemore with someone who had noe me inside out n my closest fren. The feeling realli sux.
By the way, this is our firs time quarrelling rite? Or issit e second time? Dunno last time sec4 tt time consider as quarrel nt. Should record down ahaha cos it dont seems rite if we dont quarrel when both of us r so stubborn n hot temper.

End of Many things had happened

Monday, January 08, 2007
@ 8:52 AM

Well, last week i met one ex school mate. He looks matured and realli different from secondary school. Have some nice chat and den say goodbye to him. I tot that mayb, ONLI MAYBE that he can be the one for me since we can still talk after so long and he fits the bill for who i wan. But tts onli the appearance, the outside, not the inside.
Im wrong, REALLI Wrong. I can say that this guy, is yet another disappointment for me. He dont understand, and simply dont understand who am I, what kind of gal i am, what are the things im seeking for. No doubt that what he tell me about life goals and stuff like that is a kind of concern to me but I hate people nagging over the same thing for hours after hours. I HATE people trying to change my lifestyle, trying to interfere my life. I AM MYSELF, the one and onli me in this world. If you are my fren, shouldnt u jus accept for who i am? So whats wrong with being playful and short sighted? I noe what i am doing, i noe bout all the adult issues but i jus dont wanna tink bout it. Not now, not in this stage of life. Its time for some fooling and foolishness. After this period of time, as an adult, you will never be back.
Though its a disappointment but i still can laugh. Laugh at my own stupidity for almost falling for someone who is so not my type and also happy that i need not pin for the impossible. The guy for me will soon come and he will make me feel that im special. At the same time, trusting and accepting me for who i am. However, i mus admit that this disappointment had almost make me feel hopeless. Though i believe that this special guy will come along and make me feel special but who will it be? Issit possible that this one guy will reali appear? Not the firs time these question pop inside my head but all answers are jus not found. THey will onli stop popping onli till answers are found.
Im hopless. Hopeless bout guys. Not say that i will become a lesbian but i jus wanna cut off my need to feel loved, my need to love. All these needs are jus to irritating and make me feel so fustrated each time i tink bout them. O god, when can the answers be found?
Howeva, stil thanz to him that i feel that im lucky once. When Li Heng plays a big part of my life. He actually tinks that we are once together. I realli have to thanz him for thinking it that way cos this will makes me feel better that Li Heng, is once my fren, someone who is quite close .Though, the truth may not be so.
I realli hope that, this is the last time, i feel so vulnerable and helpless towards these issues. Haiz..

End of Another disappointment-- Desperateness

Tuesday, January 02, 2007
@ 5:34 AM

My new year somehow is different from my Christmas. I jus stayed at home and enjoy the quietness. Howeva, do not be mistaken that quietness means boring, it can be fun oso.
I had went my cousin house overnight on new year eve. Our initial thought is to went countdown at boon lay but we dismiss it after much consideration and Ann dont likes to squeeze with the crowd. Reach their house at bout 9 plus and we played computer games all e way till bout 12 plus. I played Sims while the other had their fill of maple. By then im already quite tired as e previous night i slept onli at 4 but my smaller cousin dont let me sleep. Then my bro and my other 2 cousins suddenly come up with this idea to drink alcohol. Tried 2 combi, Vodka Raspberry with coke and Chivas with coke. One of them said that Chivas with coke is normally sold in clubs budden i prefer raspberry with coke, it taste much better. After that we pick one show to go along with the alcohol, Pink Panther. We had a jolly good laugh but my brother certainly goes hysteric bout e show. He jus keeps laughing n laughing. Though he said no but we all believe that the high feeling is definitely contributed by the drinks.
SO after that we went bed and woke up, its New Year!! Watched another show with eldest cousin then after that we all went gradma house. There, we played several games, all from Xiao Qi Da Cai Shen. 5 of us played till mad and all the beatings as punishments realli hurt. Tink me n eldest cousin got the worst canes from all e other cousins ba.
Then went swimming today. After that went cousin house for pizza. K, though these few days didn realli go anywhere far but its e feeling. One big family get together and had fun. Wahaha, so nice.
At the same time, projects are almost done and after tml, i believe that all of us can get more rest and fun than before. Heehee.
So, its new year, hope all of u have fun and good luck for the year ahead. Jiayou Jiayou Jiayou!

End of Quiet yet Fun