Tuesday, December 26, 2006
@ 7:38 AM

It had been raining the whole of last week, and occasinally the rain continued for a few days withou stopping. At the same time, i guess it stopped many fun outdoor activities too. However, thanz god that weather spare us on the weekends, which is christmas and eve. Imagine its raining while orchard rd is still pack with ppl...
Indeed, on christmas eve, enting, may and me went orchard road. We actually wanted to enjoy the joyous mood budden its not joyous at all, we had 'enjoyed' being sardine, packed in the can.
Having enough of the squeezing we proceed to Marina and decide to settle with a movie for the night. Death Note 2: The last Name. The last name belongs to Light. The last person who died bcos of the Death Note. Ok, to be fair, its a nice movie, so nice that i actually catch the movie again the nxt day with my cousins. Heehee, but im jus nt happy that Light died, cos after all hes my fave character in e movie and in e comic itself. Though he got sidetrack in e middle of e killing and the way he punishes criminals is abit extreme, but still somehow i agreed with him, sometimes sacrifice is needed.
Furthermore, different ppl have different definition of justice. No one had the right to justify or to correct the definition cos theres no rule or law to say hw justice should be. You and I, had never seen justice in its truest form and so who can determine that what justice is actually is?
Anyway, had my fill of fun this christmas. Mahjong, movies, friends and greetings. Its wat i get... warmth.
Then went for another movie today, 'Night in the musem'. ANother movie, however, this time a light one. A comdey which requires not much thinking and storyline is simple and sweet, suitable for all ages. After the movie went crystal jade for dinner which make alot of us very full but of course its yummy. Wahaha, thanz to my auntie for treating us.
Hmm...relationship, is realli a headache. I noe sometimes whom we love most will not be with us forever or we may not end up together. Howeva, if we are to get married, i tink its still best to at least find someone u like instead of someone u need. Becos u love him, u give urself to him. You need him doesnt means that you will want to give urself to him, end out it will turn out a torment for both party. Grab a boat if you are to drown, dont grab a float. In the end, you are still floating in the sea, waiting for that boat to come along.
That will be all for today. Hope you guys enjoy christmas. Night.

End of Chirstmas

Thursday, December 21, 2006
@ 6:16 AM

Finally its the holi and so far passed quite fast. Mon is my 18th bdae, went bedok and downtown with may n enting. Though its abit dead with jus 3 person going escape, still its my firs time there, n its fun. Well, spent most of the time queuing up for the rides than playing the rides, things were much worse when the weather is actually very humid, causing us keep sweating n sweating. This actually caused us to be veri tired after jus a few rides. Furthermore, all 3 of us got headache due to the bad weather, tink its cause of dehydration but enting n may tell me that its not. So both of them gave me a Tigger for my bdae which i love it alot. Sat went celebrate with Net that time already saw a similar one but i dont dare to buy as its actually quite ex but end out its still lies in my hands, Wahaha. Thanz a million times. Den quite a few ppl unexpectedly sent their greetings which make me feel that, 'eh, im not alone in this world'.
Tues rest, den wed and thurs did our ecd project. Mainly is the deco for our tea house. Ahaha, its realli alot of work and the 3 of us had to split the work. May do the wordings, Enting do the tea pot, tea leaves and me do the boi boi. Ahaha, matched everything together, looks ok and nice from the far.
Saw Jeff at JP today. Hmm...its a pleasant surprise to me cos its been sometime since i say hello to anyone frm Jurong besides Net and Jun Hong. Furthermore, hes one of those frens whom we onli noe of each others presence n had nth to do with each other in sch. Its rather nice for him to walk up to me and say hello. This unexpected meeting make me think back lots and lots of past. Compared to times when im still in Jss and now, im so different and had changed so much. Can i say i had changed for the better? In the passed im used to be so proud and arrogant, had the thought that everyone likes me so much which in actual fact that its not. However, when i saw Jeff today, i realised that im so different in the way i speak and behave. I cnt say that im much better now but at least im better, i noe where i stand. Hee. In fact, i feel that im a lil towards e introvert side. Im nt considered as soft spoken but sometimes, i jus dont like to talk and will tend to wonder into deep thoughts. I tink i am actually quite shy and shock when he talked to me today.
Due to this small meeting, i went through some profile of frens in my friendster and had realised that, JJ and HM is together AGAIN!! This realli tell me something. Those fated ones will owas b together, no matter hw mani times u have break or parted. Though nw im close to HM anymore or rather we are more like strangers than frens nw, i still feel happy for them, realli happy. Its kinda sweet when u noe that puppy love actually turned out to be a lasting relationship. I hope that they will last like this foreva and oso those in love to b owas in love.
SO that will be all for tonight. Nightx everyone and enjoy ur festive seasons!!

End of Finally hit 18...

Monday, December 11, 2006
@ 7:29 AM

Tink, its time to break down my character and some events i went thru before i turn 18 next monday. 18years on the earth is not consider long but its not short either, enough to change angel to devil and devil to angel.
In my 18 years of life, went through 2 deaths of my family members. At age of 7, my great grandfather passed away with age of 92. Im still young then and im nt realli sure hw he looks like and i feel then. All i noe is that i still had the mood to fool around with my little cousin and firs time i saw my grandma cried. My dad told me that my great grandfather had 'shifted' house and yes truly indeed, shifting hm to another world beyond our reach. Then next one happened last year, on my bdae, my granduncle died. In terms of blood ties, we are not close but in actual fact, he had been an important part of my childhood. Of course, by then, i knew what death is all about and this time, i cried.
Then in teenage years, grandparents all start to fall ill due to their age. Age is catching up on them. I had seen strands of black hair turning into sliver, jungle turning into blank, no longer as lively as before. Trace of years can be found on everyones' face, including dad n mums. Worries, fear did fill these years and they still did now. I can onli say treasure your love ones before they leave. At the same time, i am oso wondering for how long, can us cousins stay so closely in touch. Will it still happen when the previous generation had all 'shifted' house?
Of course, then it comes to all the separation and betrayals. Faced the firs and hardest betrayal when im 14. This lesson i will never forget and will owas remain as a scar inside me. From then on, my character changed. More complicated, more practical, more serious, more self conscious and its marks the beggining of maturity and growing up.
Real and true frens are realli hard to find in this world. Im lucky to still stay in contact with frens from pri. sch, sec sch and JC. Well, i dont have much frens and a large social circle. But im glad to have them with me around, the truest frens to me. Now studying in poly, May n Enting, i hope we will owas remain that kind of frens even though we may hav e possibility to be separated nxt year. Ups and downs, you will owas have me.
Ok, then here it comes to my character. Seriously speaking, im never feminine enough (though enting did say that im quite lady now) Yup, for nw i do have the 'outside' of a lady but inside im still a mixture. I have the stubborness, the clumsiness, carelessness of guy but oso the emo, the fickleminded, willful, spoilness of gals. Above are e few more obvious traits in me la...haha. You guys cn feel free to add more in. Howeva, still like many of the city folks, im still abit loss and dont realli understand myself well, cos sometimes i still will get angry with myself over some very minor stuff.
Then lets come to relationship. I have yet to taste the sweet n bitter of BGR and recently dunno why, im very keen in finding a handsome boyfriend. Wahaha. Looking for my Mr Right to come by and i realli believe that one day, he will come. My criteria as below:

1. At least 180cm
2. Tanned and strong built (dont mind abit on the skinny side so long as he dont mind my size)
3. Good looking or pleasent looking (Im a superficial gal but i dont wan a superficial guy)
4. Conservative guy
5. Humorous
6. Had opinions of his own
7. Likes freedom and give me freedom
8. Can cook nice dishes for me
9. Caring and protective

And the list goes on and on. But tink this is a super long entry. Hope all of u enjoy life and once again i realli thanz those who had made my life. You know who you guys are. Love you all. Night