Friday, November 24, 2006
@ 7:09 AM

This week is alot better than last week as in this week is not as stress, at least theres space for me to breath. Managed to finish the FMGT project and for the time being, i can fork out some time to have my own fun and own space. Heehee.
I realli getting lazier, even when common test comes, i dont even bother to study much. Theres a CMA test on tues, but i onli study on the day itself. Pon HRM lect to study but end out i spend 1 hour plus in sleeping. Its not i dont wan to study la, jus that its v boring studying theory and tutorials all we had done before, not challenging to do smth u had done before, and had e ans in ur mind. Ahaha, but lucky the test turn out fine. I realli try my luck, forget the formula in the midist of the test and i actually figure and argue my way thru. Finally, decided to do e qns according to my own theory and lucky, i guess the formula correctly.
So wed i stayed home and Linnet come my hse. We went for a short lunch and came home to watch some shows and play mahjong. Played mahjong with my bro n his fren. OMG! Its been so long i've bicker with someone till like tt. Its like i am back to 13-14yrs old. Tt stupid xiao pang... Den Linnet watched some video in youtube and i just keep lazing ard.
Thurs went swimming with enting but didn swim much. The new swimming pool isnt tt good either. The onli nice thing bout tt place is the indoor competition pool...wahaha, i simply love it, somemore on e day we go, nt much ppl. AHAHA. Enting is oso complaining tt hw e pool r meant for kids n nt for adults...haha. I actually wanted to tan myself but haiz, nt much difference i tink, good for enting, she didn want to b tan.
Den today after tutorials went off to meet Linnet dey all. The open hse is damn dead. Mayb its cos of e rain? Or jus tt JSS is still nt a good sch enough? Well, its realli dead la. Wanted to see some teachers but end out realise that some went China for interimship. Den we rot in sch waiting for Mr Ching to come back for lunch. Hes lame, damn lame, become more n more crappy. I wonder hw the class cn stand him for 2yrs back in secondary. Again, like im in sec sch, keep arguing with him. While waiting for Mr Ching, me n Linnet had our fun oso, keep disturbing Xiao Pang. Frm far we keep calling him lyk tt, make him quite paiseh in front of his frens...AHaha. Anyway its been so long seeing my frens la, actually besides Linnet, jus one more gal, Siti la. Ahaha. Its fun and well, suddenly felt that i had cut off myself frm my sec sch classmates le., like v not update, Too involved in poly life le but well.. not much of e sadness cos, 4/4 is nv too united. Too much clique and politics. Im owas in my own world when im in sec sch, well, somemore i noe it, cos of my willfulness n bad temper, quite a no of ppl dont like me oso.
At e beginning of e sem im still worried that i may fall into tt kind of stupid trap once again but YES! I cn cfm to myself that, no, it will not n it will not anymore. Thanz god. I dont wan e kind of life i had in sem 3. Owas sad n weeping for someone nt worth it.
Well well well, Im so happy cos e show that i wanna watch is finally out and i get to watch the firs episode already. Its nice, n its those kind of show u have to watch it over n over again, each time u watch it, you will increase your liking for it. Wa... my hubby so cute n shuai lo... Liking Fahrenheit more n more. I owas gt a soft spot for handsome guys..Heehee.
So tt will be all for today. Nightz everyone. :)

End of huBby HuBby HuBby!!

Sunday, November 19, 2006
@ 9:05 AM

Im stuck, Im lost in this big big world. Someone asked me wats my passion and my mind jus goes blank like tt. I had already passed the point to build dreams and my dreams is already gone. No doubt i can grab that lil lil chance in the air, but it jus feels so tired, so bleak.
I answered, 'Eat, play, slp and fun everyday, till the very day i die'' and Enting actually said that what i lack is passion. Yupz, indeed it is true, wat im lack is passion. I dunno wat i wan, i dunno wat i wan to achieve, i jus pass each day with no aim, no hope, jus hope that the holidays will be here soon. I simply dont like to work and i agree that im a lazy bum. No doubt i can study but besides studying, i dont like to lay my hands on any work. I had absoultely no chance to survive in this big big world cos all i wan is fun and play.
How i hope theres a restart button in life so that i can restart my life. Grab hold of the chance to learn something that i want, remake the choices i had made, and most imptly, i can have happy childhood for another 12years.
Im such an ordinary gal, tts when depression comes in. I felt that the depression is eating me up, turning my world into different shades of grey. Its not complete darkness yet but when its dark, mayb, its time for me to close my eyes.
Projects are piling, work are piling and yet, some people are jus so free. WOrk are assigned and all they wanna do is jus to push e work away. If i had the brains that i used to have, i tink i will not be as pessimistic as i am now. Im beginning to doubt my abilities, serious doubting.
I realli hope that one day i will marry rich. So that i no need to worry about my working abilities, so that i can have all the fun, all the food and all the merry of the world. Like i said, i dont mind dealing with politics, but pls dont ask me to work. I HATE WORKING!! I had been spoilt my parents and yeah, i agree with that. Tts me and i hope i will always be this way. ALways Dare to admit tt im spoilt, im a lazy bum and my ambition is to eat play slp. I noe some will smile at this entry and think, 'Everyone wishes this to happen u stupid gal.'' or ''Such a idiotic gal having such an idiotic dream'' but so wat, tts me. Im proud of having this as my ambition cos besides that, i have absoultely no dream.
If i have to tink that i have to slog for another 50years in order to survive, then i call tts bleak, VERY bleak. Work to live or Live to work? Sometimes, human got mixed up.

End of My Future is Bleak

Monday, November 13, 2006
@ 7:36 AM

Life is going to be hell for the next 2 weeks. I mean hell. Projects deadlines are nearing, common tests are coming and i have no time! So many problems to deal with and i had absoultely no time. I can feel the stress, feel the tension and at the same time, when stress comes, i noe im e one who will suffer from headaches...
Today is a horrible day, a stupid idiotic day. For the 3 sems in my poly life, i had never seen any teacher that is that bias against us and that bias towards people. She simply spoils people mood for the whole day. For presentation, we did what we can. Ya, i agree that information are still lacking but im sure that the idea is sure feasible. What do you mean by realli high class? High class in a bazaar? Are you kidding me? Make it big? Ya, we did want it do but wat bout prices? Are you the one being practical? No personal attacks? Dont make me laugh my ass off. Who started the personal attacks firs? Stop being so defensive? I didn, im jus answering what u are asking. Vain Ass.
K stop all e cursing and swearing, lets do a realistic check. Out of the 3 ideas, we all can see it very very clearly, which idea is the most feasible. Its definitely not ours, ours is in e mid range. Which of the item you are likely to buy in a community centre? Food or accessories? Its not like i hav something against e other grp, its jus so happen that teacher''s favourtism is too obvious that none of the class can stand it. I can say that im so pissed that i will not give any face to tt teacher anymore.
Gals, are so soft hearted, so fickle minded. My promises are never kept. Even those i make to myself. I said never to speak to him again. I said that we will not even be frens but look, what is this? Its been a few months since we contact each other n today ends e period of silence. Im jus so FUCKING useless!
Ya...theres no more feelings for me but hw come gals owas have some soft spot for those she had realli put in effort? I dunno. Li Heng is lyk tt, Darius is lyk tt, he is oso like tt. I can never walk out in one piece when i fall.
Haiz...that will be all tonight. Night

End of Entering the battle period...

Thursday, November 09, 2006
@ 7:02 AM

Im dying...dying soon. Suddenly all e stress is coming. Events Management with ECD is a killer for me. If for ECD, we got in for the Bazzare, then i can realli go hang myself on the wall le. Firsly I have to help organise the Photo Competition for Events Management which everything my grp had to start from the scratch. Fund raising, finding for sponsors, finding someone to tend the exhibition booth, finding people to vote and judge the photos, then i had to make sure that, it is properly launched on the 6th of Dec. Somemore the organisers for the conference are damn not efficient...causing us a little problems. Haiz.. After that, i had to prepare for the 6th of Jan, the Bazzare at Yuhuaa CC. I can already imagine myself dealing with the budget and stuff like that. The WORST of it all is that, tt is not the onli project we have, we still have HRM, BLAW and FMGT. WTH... this gonna be so dead.
Went for The Grudge 2 yesterdAY. Erm...the effects are scary, in tt sense of the atmosphere, e sounds and the pictures, they are scary and they scare the hell out of me. As a horror show, its good that dey didn use any gruesome pics to maximise the effect BUT what they lack of, is e backbone -- The story line. Hollywood had been too ambitious. This is the Asia Market, we are the Asians. We Asians needs a good story for a good movie. If you want a scare yes go for e movie, but if u r those who like to look deeper into the story, you can forget about the Grudge 2 then. Basically, the ending is LOUSY, and the Storyline is EMPTY. The movie is jus there for a scare but not an entertainment. Not much satisfaction after the show.
Then went Sakae Sushi for lunch cum tea cum dinner. As usual, when we go there, we will aimed for our target. The 4 of us jus eat n eat, stuff n stuff, trying to stuff as much as we can BUT, i jus cannot stand it anymore. Im already till an extent tt my stomach is full with pain. Wahaha...its been so long tt i had ate so sushi so still e sense of satisfaction is there. Im so happy. Wahaha.
K, that will b all for today entry. Hope all of u stress is not catching up. Night

End of Random Entry (2)

Monday, November 06, 2006
@ 8:49 AM

Firs thing, Happy Bdae to my dear gal, Enting. Hope you had a nice n enjoyable night with us tonight. Hope we will have this outing more often.
Went sch as usual but we are actually waiting for the big event later in the day, which is to celebrate Enting's Bdae beforehand. Heehee, so actually before that i am actually quite moody cos i have no mood for lesson at all. Im actually waiting for the event to come by AND I AM VERY DISTURBED BY SOMETHING, which i dunno wat issit. Haiz.
Initially, all wanted to go hm late but i say no cos i dont feel like. Haha..alright, eventually i still agreed. We took bus 75 to Marina. Hmm...we owas gt e problem of where to get down when we go to marina so this time we actually over shot but still its nearer than e previous times that we actually walked a mile. We walk here and there in the marina square. Seriously, Marina is not a good place to shop in cos all e products are of high prices which dont realli suit students. Den Enting bout present for her dear while i ''aimed'' at tiggers at mini toons but i heartache n wanna save e money for Fahrenheit CD, so didn buy. Lets Wait till i have more money. After leaving e shop, we stop by this bear bear shop. Everything in e shop is so silky, so nice to touch n i actually wanna buy but again no $$. Days with limited $$ realli feels lousy.
After tt went Café cartel for dinner, as usual, we search for tt place for v long. Enting order sandwhich, me n may order salmon in terriyaki sauce, then order ice cream for sharing while i order additional oreo drink. The food is nice n VERY FILLING. Eat till half way, e all 3 of us are struggling to finish up the food, n enting did actually trick May into finishing e ice cream...Ahaha. I wanna announce tt this one of the most expensive meals i had pay for. Fancy $30+ at Café Cartel for jus dinner.
So Finally i decided to go hm late and went KBOX. There was this promo for members at KBOX and lady luck is realli with me and, So we can actually sing frm 7pm to 2 am for jus onli $12+ per person. We sang alot of songs, cn say tt we actually sing to our fill. May kept saying tt she dont dare to sing n sing not nice but end out actually she can sing de lo. As for me, as usual i cnt sing without someone guiding me except for those songs tt i am V V V familiar with. So 2 of em poor thing, have to bear with my croaking n out of tone singing. Haha...its realli realli nice and fun tonight. With all e singing and laughing. Hope e nxt outing will be like this one oso. So fun and enjoyable. Bout 11 plus den we leave frm Marina, one of e latest time tt i get hm. Im realli an adult now. Wahaha. So e 2 of u, r u honoured? I actually cast my principles awaya leh.
So tt will be all tonight and hope that e BDAE GAL did actuAlly enjoy e night with us oso cos i realli tink tt i had my fun too. Hahaha. Nightz everyone.

End of Happy Bdae to You

Sunday, November 05, 2006
@ 5:47 AM

I had been hot bout this boy band for e time being, which is Fahrenheit. Initially, i like onli one guy which is Wu Zhun but as time goes by, as i start to noe more bout e band, i started to like e whole band, n soon i became crazy over em. Each n every one of em are so shuai and so cute. Hahaha.
Thurs evening went Town to search for Enting's bdae. Tot tt it will be a tough search but i nv noe tt its so easy but we are or she is realli lucky cos e thing we bought for her is already the last piece, n tt is wat she realli want oso. But hell, its was so damn expensive. May said tt its normal cos its almost impossible to buy it elsewhere le but still it is so ex lo. Its a disappointment for me instead cos i didn manage to get e Fahrenheit Cd i want. I mean yes i did bought it in e end, but its not e version tt i wan. I wan e ticket to their event and oso e VCD tt come with it. I ran everywhere, Heeren, PS and even places like JP but all were sold out!! No choice but to buy jus e cd. Haiz...sometimes you shld nt ponder too much bout stuff, i realli regretted tt i tink too much. Since when did i give a tot to monetary value? E firs time i tot bought it, i am regretting like tt. Haiz...
Fri went party world with my father. Hahaz..its realli like wat enting said, e rooms are big. We sang quite alot of songs but still i dont feel tt its enough cos most of e time, my bro was singing n when its my turn to sing, my dad actually rush us to go hm!! So unfair!!
Today as usual is my family day. Hahaz...im playing e so called 'ping pong' with my bro n cousin when e ball jus hit e ash tray n e whole thing jus drop to e floor and smash it into pieces. That was quite alot of commotion then n i actuallly hurt my foot when i accidentally step on one of e pieces. Everyone jus rush in and my grandpa had to take e broom n swept e pieces away. E ash tray had been in e house for as long as i rmb, n i tink its life span is even longer than my time on earth. Anyway, by relating this story is tt, i realised tt its been so long tt i had do anything foolish or crazy. I suddenly realized tt i had been brain washed by reality n forgot the fun n thrill of getting into trouble. This one small incident actually made me tink tt im so far away from my childhood. I tink its time for me to get wild nw, if its possible.
I finally noe e reason y im weird cos theres smth inside which makes me feel so uncomfortable. I tried to refrain myself for tinking e unecessary but still everything seems so possible. So nw, im jus gonna keep my distance away. Like i said, Im still nt ready for a relationship and im enjoying my single life, though my family is now tinking tt i had a bf already.
So tt will be all for today. Nitez everyone. Its been so long since i last blog so it will abit long. Paiseh. Night

End of Its been so long im had do anything crazy.