-|*|My Sweetie Cutie|*|-

♥ Poem ♥

From Trojon to Athens Home
he lost his way and a good 10years.
With danger and adventure,
he all brisk through.
hail to home with rivalries.
O dear lord with all his wits,
all his rivals gone for good.
O dear Odysseus and Penelope
a love thatlast for eternal.

- YiNGZ -

# Wishes

Name --> Ying (Chinese Online -->Shadow)

D.O.B --> 18/12/88 (Sagitauraus

Interest --> Writing, Reading, Sleeping, Eating, Listening to music, Watching TV

Current Reading --> Greek & Rome Mythology

# Wishes

To stay happy 4eva

To travel around the world, especially Taiwan, China, Japan & Finland

To have lots of money to go backpacking

To visit Globe Theatre in Britain

Watch Shakespearian Play

To eat and not get fat

To have a new laptop

To be a scriptwriter/ author

# Likes

Travelling

Good looking guys

Delicacies & good food

Pretty stuff

Artworks as in plays, musics, dramas & comc

Stars --> Alien, Show, Sammi

Colours --> Black, White, Grey, Pink, Blue

-YingZ-

# Chat

Let's talk

♪ Entries

Monday, July 31, 2006
@ 9:40 AM

Rewatched The Rose these few days. Frm Fri till now, keep watching n watching, kepp crying n crying.

The last time i watched is e beginning of Sec4, after 2yrs, some feelings is different while some feelings still remain e same.

This show is abit different from e rest of the Ou Xiang Ju. Firs, its more erm, literature n abit more empasis on e atmosphere feeling compared to e others. Second, the main charac is not wat we are looking at but the theme. Third, the male lead is not as handsome as the 2nd male lead, who is my husband, Joseph Cheung Yuan Chang.

The show tends to lead you to focus on how the charac is feeling instead of the main storyline which in turn make me cry alot. Cos i will feel sad whenever e charac is feeling sad. Haha.

Budden this show, i abit too into it le. EVen pon sch today jus to watch e show>.<>
I guess, this gonna be a fun n enjoyable week for me. Alot of outings, alot of spendings. Some sort of relaxation before e exam ba. Though, im already relaxed enough, to an extent that im getting lazier. Heehee.
So that will be all for tonight entry. Cheers!!

End of The Rose

Thursday, July 27, 2006
@ 8:19 AM

Finally, its all so empty within me.

Finally, i realli realli find no interest in guys le.

Guys are all e same.

So fickle and so not devoted.

Both good and bad ones are the same.

Finally for a period of time, i will not devote my time into guys and HIM. I can now concentrate alot of things and be myself again. Im so so so so so so happy that i finally achieve my aim. Mus thanz ShaoWei oso Cos he is realli a disappointment and i have lost faith in guys now.

Today meet ShaoWei but like i say alot of times, its nothing but awkwardness. Its not too bad la but jus that sometimes we dunno wat to say to each other. I mean its expected de cos we so long nv meet already. He changed, i changed and dont seems to understand each other as much when compared to last time. Howeva, the frenship is still there. He still jokes and tell me everything, and of course me too. Its a stupid outing today i can say, jus keep walking rounds n rounds in CCK. Damn stupid.

K, he told me some stuff which i nt realli happy bout. Which is lyking 2prsn at e same time. Till nw, i still cannot understand that how issit possible. Blame me for being ignorant but i realli dont understand n i dunno hw. Howeva, dont try to drill sense into me on this matter cos i gt my own philisophy too. Its jus simply unacceptable for me.

After a day without slp, im tired, realli tired. So i will end here n night everyone...

End of Empty...

Wednesday, July 26, 2006
@ 7:28 AM

Recieved my ITP letter and i was posted to

Regent Star Travel Pte Ltd in LAVENDER!

If i took an MRT, i tink it should be alright BUT Lavender. Everyone is posted to areas somewhere near their house, JE, Tiong Bahru n me? Pratically travelling from one an to another end of the MRT line. Working hours is typical office hours

9-6 or 11-8.

Hope it wont b too late when i reach home.

Haiz...but at least it is not sales which i dreaded lots. I hope i need not entertain the customers there. Mayb i can help to deal with the enquiries or help with the paperwork?

In this way, at least i can learn how the whole process works and sure will be a benefit for my future working life.

Jus hope that all is not nothing but jus my dreams.

Tml im meeting

ShaoWei

alone. When he mentioned to ask Amelia along, my eyes realli lit up for awhile. At least, it will not be that weird but haiz...she cannot make it. I do miss her n its a pity.

Firs time going out with a guy.

Seriously im tinking of cancelling off but since im e one who initiate e outing, it will not be so appropriate if i call it off suddenly. Im realli not

use to the idea of going out with a guy alone.

Some people may comment, 'wat the heck, its 21st century now. Wake up old lady! Its common.' but still the weird feeling is inside me. Wat i scared is e awkwardness n inability to react. I noe we are frens, jus frens (though some ppl thought that there will b sparks) but it had been a long time since we meet up, a yr plus ba. Mayb theres no topic at all.

Alan,

a name that i do not want to be reminded of still pops into my mind sometimes howeva i believe its time to go n for goodbyes. Mayb like Enting says, he realli like me a lil bit but tts me. I realli think that im still not ready for a relationship . Im still not ready to the closeness and bonding of 2 separate gender n individual bodies. I tink i have to take it slow.

K, tt will be all for tonight. Nitez everyone!! ^^

End of Attachment

Sunday, July 23, 2006
@ 7:34 AM

People who cares I believe that i mus say a BIG THANK YOU to all of you. You all have been repeatively taking my nonsense over and over again jus becos i fall for one big idiot. I pin for him, cries for him, crazy over him, both happy and sad over him. However, more often, its tears that he gave me instead of laughter.

I can say that im a total failure. 9months and i got no progress on our frenships. Now, i tink all of you should congratulate me on getting over him. I cant be warrant that the next time i c him, my heart would not skip a beat or something. But wat i can assure is that he is a past now and im trying all my best to forget him.

Im fed up with him, disgusted with him and even feels that hes pathetic. He took joy in teasing me, talking nonsense and bull shitting. A insecure coward deep inside who eventually will hurt anyone who cares for him. I rmb once enting said, 'if he realli likes you and dont treasure it now, one day, he will regret it.' Im not sure if hes going to regret if im not going to like him anymore but wat i wan to show is that, i needed to be treasured and not tormented like wat it is now.

I owas knew that needing someone is a mistake, a real big mistake. Mayb leaving this pathetic forte of mine may means that my defense is up again but i dont wan to be controlled by anyone anymore. If he realli tinks that he can control my behaviour and emotions, then, hes wrong, utterly wrong. Even if im being manipulated and cotrolled now, eventually i will break off those chains and seek my freedom again. Now im going to do so. Im going to be myself again.

Again a BIG THANK YOU and A Kiss to those who had helped me, tolerate me, love me, give me advices during these 9months. Im going to end this stupid period and im sure you all will be glad to noe that.. I love all of you. Muackz

End of Free From Locks

@ 7:34 AM

End of Free From Locks

Friday, July 21, 2006
@ 8:12 AM

Basically im now tired, super tired. Today lesson at 9 and i onli manage to reach home nw. If theres no people sending me home, i gonna reach home later.

During EC lect today gt some kind of 'show' to watch. That Tay Ah Bee recently very PMS, scold ppl for no rhyme or reason. Jus one small mistake, he can nag you hours after hours. Den Han Loon n Yong Sing were crapping bout him which make me laugh like mad. After e lect, 6 of us, me may hanloon yongsing Huimei n Sara went wulu canteen for so call breakfast. Its been long i eat with such a big group and also firs time at Canteen 4. Haha...actually i like e feeling there la cos feels like e bonding is quite good. After that lesson time n off we go.

FIT lecture is quite boring cos e lecture speed through during the last page and seriously i didn pay attention n didn catch wats he is toking bout but forget it, i will find out a way myself. After that meet ChangFang dey all for dinner.

I at firs plan to have dinner with then, den play arcade awhile. den c dem skate awhile n i will go home. Howeva, i was drag into the skating ring by them. I didn even bring socks la n lucky ChangFang bring an additional pair. Hmm... Cn say today progress on skating is not bad, changfang say at least i got the style there already. Yeah!! All of sudden im interested in ice skating le, though due to too much bending, my back hurts alot.

Actually being with Changfang is quite relaxed and Juliana give me wise advise on wat to do bout him. Haha its a totally different feeling being with them. Actually im glad to meet them like this everyweek.

Finish off at 9+ but i waited for my mum till 10.30 cos i wanna take a free ride home. Im quite bored with the idea of going home alone so late, so, i better wait. Too much coincidence le, wherevea i go, theres SHerman. Met him for the 3rd time today. Haiz.

K, there will be all for tonight. I realli super tired...

End of Ice skating.

Thursday, July 20, 2006
@ 7:42 AM

Today AF lesson watch the show, 'USual Suspects'. Its a show bout 5 guys come together to do so crime in order to earn money. In the midst of the whole thing, their services is engaged by the so call 'Soze'. One refused and ran away but was later found dead. The other 4 had no choice but to accept the offer. They carried out their mission but onli to find out that the mission is not like wat they are told to do. They are on a mission to kill instead of steal. After that, one by one drop dead with onli one survival being brought back to the police station.

Then the shows focus on who exactly is Soze. End out its the survivor who is Soze. However, quite disappointed when i got to noe that the guy is actually Soze cos hes short. I mean being a symbol of devil, shouldnt him be abit taller so that he can portray the authority of him. I understand that its to hide away his identity but... Basically i like the show alot, not onli cos of the twist and turn of the show at the end but also the charm of its actors. I seriously like the guy playing the role 'Keaston'. As the shows develop, i can feel the pain in him of whether to mend his ways or go back to his old path again.

I think when frens starts to be classmates for sometime, slowly they will become closer. In the past, dont realli talk with the 3 guys and now slowly we can talk though not alot. The feeling of helping each other out is actually not bad la...ahaha.

I tink that will be all tonight. Actually jus wanna to share my opinions bout the show here. Its my habit la, everytime i finish watching one movie or reading a story book , i will realli tink alot. Heres my blog and im here to write that out. Kk, too much crap le. Night.

End of Usual suspect....

Wednesday, July 19, 2006
@ 7:20 AM

Good books does not necessary brings you laughter, it can bring you tears also. Alot of them. I mentioned that i went to the library on Sunday n i have finished reading one of the book. Hmm...come to think of it, its been some time i read book of a Hong Kong author, i almost forgot their style of writing is more my cup of tea, more literature. For Taiwan, they are more comical. Both have their pros and cons. This book that i have finished is a Hong Kong author.

The book is about 2gals with similar looks, love and hate of their parents respectively. Theres alot of twist and turn in the story and I like the ending alot. Someone whom never been loved or love anyone in her life had finally found it. However its not those normal kind of happy ending. Abit of sadistic cos the gal was caught for mudering another gal who have the same face -- For the happiness she wants and had not had for 20years. A good book makes you keep on and on and on. I can say that its one of the best book i have read recently.

I cried alot during the last 100pages of the story. Basically the whole story is very grey. Mistake from the generation before are carried down and none had their happiness. Haiz...i like grey grey stuff.

Hmm...maybe its time to strive towards by goal? Howeva, come to think of it, my style of writing its more like writing a story than a script but wateva it is, reading n writing is one of my past time hobby.

Yeah, finally finished EC project for the time being. Jus left the putting in of images into the website. Phew... I tot that we will never complete the project. Haha...but end out the its quite easy, but jus some problems with the saving of file.

K night everyone. Muakz

End of Book Review-- A nice nice book

Tuesday, July 18, 2006
@ 10:05 AM

Children are nonsensical animals and my brother got into trouble cos of these nonsensical acts. Haiz, little gals, dunno wat they are thinking. Beat people up jus cos ur BF gana snatch? Ridiculous isnt it? I wonder when dey look back when dey are older, how would dey feel. One more thing, when did JSS teachers becom so useless and vulnerable towards these kinds of things.

Got back PMKT project and yes, we got the highest in class. Lucky our efforts are paid off, if not i cn go bang the wall. Seems like this sem, the projects are going smoothly and are much better. Even Ec which make us go rounds suddenly seems much easier today. At least half completed? Hope we can meet the deadline.

Im confused, tired with things. Sticky situations after sticky situations. Enting suddenly ask me, ' do you still like alan?' Seriously, i dunno how to ans. If i say no, i tink to him, its still smth more than frenship. If i say yes, its much less than that. He still stands a part in my mind but that part is diminishing.... fast.

He came talk to me today. He says ' you seldom disagree with me de.' Mayb im not in the mood cos my parents were having a quarrel jus nw? Or jus that the shadows of the nightmare i got from previous night still lurk in my mind that i got abit irritated?

Someone give me a knock on my head last night, telling me that liking someone is not a crime. Suddenly i realise that what am I scared of actually? All these while, im hiding, pushing, denying the fact that i want him and worse of all scared to let him noe. What issit that is keeping me from doing things? What exactly am i afraid of when everything is not a crime? I dunno and i cnt seems to find the ans. Scared of getting hurt so i shut out every possibility that he actually seems to be interested? I dunno. Realli ired and confused with this mess i have created myself but i tink one day, its gonna be fine.

End of Im tired confused but still going fine.

Monday, July 17, 2006
@ 7:42 AM

He owas bring me to heaven n push me to hell. This time, theres a possibility that i mayb wrong n i mayb right. If im wrong, that means im too easily swayed by words n not enough trust in him. I may sounds like a over possessive girlfren here though im not but as a fren, i still hope that he dont lies. Wateva the reason n motive it is, lies often hurts alot. Like someone did it to me a few years ago. A broken promise till now that i wonder why that person did not try to keep it. If he dont wan, he cn jolly well tell me that he dont wan to make that deal wth me. Hurt was all i feel and 3yrs later, history repeat itself jus that the male lead had been changed to another guy. Mayb i make too much empty promises, told too much lies that retribuition comes around.

Last night i have a nightmare due to the lies he gave me. I dreamt that May, Enting n me were walking in the school. Howeva, no matter where we are, Alan's owas there n with that mocking laughter. Mocking at me for throwing myself at him.

Liking him, maybe a big mistake. For so long, nothing happens and everything seems to go well n getting worse at the same time. Getting complicated and out of hand. How i hope everything cn be reverse, back to the time that i started to fall for him. During that time, my expectation was still not so high. Now, its getting higher n higher that it got out of control. I sincerely seriously wanna break away from it but...I cnt. I wan someone who will treasure me like i treasure me. Not someone who makes me laugh n cry the same time. Not someone that makes me feel like being a fool.

Today is FIT presentation. The teacher tell us that for details n facility wise, we are the best though we lack in something. For PR wise, its Hanloon's group the best. At least our effort paid off. Hope we can get as high marks as possible. Heehee.

I screwed up EC project. For that period of time, i realli feels so stupid useless n damn clumsy. Today is a day i have the lowest self esteem in my whole life. All my confident were gone to nowhere.

Thats all for today. Not a very pleasent day though. Night everyone.

End of Lies

Sunday, July 16, 2006
@ 8:15 AM

Sunday, my dearest family day again. But lets talk bout saturday first.

Sat nothing special. At firs i intend to do tutorials but the previous night read story book till too late. Slept late n the whole day i feel realli tired. Slack at home, watch TV eat watch tv. At night went cousin house for steamboat. Ahaha, thurs i say tt i will get to eat crayfish in the weekends and yes i did. The dinner was nice but the tiff with my brother before was realli a spoiler. After the meal, as usual, went my grandma hse for overnight.

Today oso nothing special. Jus a normal family day which the kids at home, play mahjong, watch TV together. Its onli at night, sis, an, me n my bro went library which makes e whole day ends so nicely. We keep looking for story books and yeah we found wat we like. Make some effort to find storybooks for my bro too. He realli needs some books cos his vocab for eng is abit limited. Reading is a nice habit, so should make him love it. I rmb in the past, i oso hate reading. Its due to influences from my cousin that i started to read. Now, i cannot imagine days without books to read. Seriously, i will be bored to death with nothing to do.

After searching for books, went to the cafe for prata. Though nothing special but the feeling is nice, warm n simple. I realli wonder, how much longer we can have this kind of time together.

One bad thing is that theres a stalker in the library. So damn stupid i can say. How can a foerign Bang*** read chinese? This bloody idiot keep loitering around the chinese books section. So stupid so idiotic n so damn brainless. I dunno if that guy noe we know it not but the i can say that all of us were aware of that. Realli make me wan to shout out vulgar n point middle finger BUT im a civilised person. I wont do that.

Tml is FIT presentation n i hope everything runs smoothly n well.

That will be all for tonights entry. Night everyone ;0

End of Sunday - A trip to the library

Friday, July 14, 2006
@ 8:15 AM

End of FRENSHIP

Thursday, July 13, 2006
@ 7:36 AM

Early in the morning went sch for AF. Today is the dunno wat flu day, need to take tempreature all e stuff. For the sake of today, i bought e lanyard, end out, its of NO USE!!! No tempreature taking, no checking of lanyards. Well, on the way to sch today, met him. He sat beside me n we have chat all e way till we reach sch. Chatted quite alot ans he make me laugh alot. Hmm..this has rather assured me that we are not onli online frens but REAL frens. Frens that can talk face to face without feeling weird n awkward. Before today, im wondering if we cn realli talk besides 'Hi' n 'Bye'. Budden cos of e close up look, i was tinking, ' e guy i like issit realli him? How come dont look like?' n most importantly, i dont have those kind of intense feeling a gal should have for the guy she like. Weird isnt it? Mayb e feeling is gone? Mayb not? Realli not sure but still im happy that we can talk.

May's bdae today n e 4 of us went Cine to have dinner n photo taking sessions. Though consider abit short for a bdae celebration, budden cnt blame cos dey have lessons onli till 5 n I dont wan go hm too late. Everyone of us hand our presents to May n she was like saying ' Wo hen gan dong leh' esp towards eve's present. If its me, i will be v gan dong oso. One thing to note, in everyone's wishings, all says the same thing to May. 'Mus learn to take care of yourself n mus grow up le.' Haha. But we noe, tts her.

Strangely enough, i love taking photos today. Cos everyone look good in the photos? I tink so cos e photo n neoprints result is realli good. Everyone looks pretty pretty n nice nice de. Heehee. But a pity, May n Enting no $$ to take together, while me n Eve dont have $$ to take together.

Its been long since e 4 of us took photos n neoprints together n i realli miss e feeling. Nice, warm n xin fu. E more xin fu thing is i wan to fill May's room with my bottles n bottles of star each year!!! I dunno if she had her happy bdae today but i realli hope she does as i had my fun n fill of xin fu too le.

Everyone mus xin fu ow. Night everyone.

End of SzeMay's 18th bdae. A nice nice day

Wednesday, July 12, 2006
@ 7:35 AM

A few days ago, im still very screwed up with projects, 3 project this week. So havoc n hectic but as days pass, mon hand in one, tues hand in 2. Im now onli left with 1 project which is EC. I hope that everything will run well n pls dear comp, dont give us more problems.

Yesterday is PMKT presentation. Nothing much but im pretty confident that for presentation, our group is considered the best and the tutor looks quite happy with our product. The problem is, the report pages exceed the maximum amount by 2 times!! I hope that wont deduct much of our marks. Though the report is long, we still missed out some scope like CRM n SCM but can see that e tutor is already satisfied with it. Much effort n time was pump in to have it look this way, so pls...

My folding stars skills is getting better, i managed to finish folding 200 of them within 4hours. I tot im going to spend alot of time on them. Haha. Im quite satisfied at how everything looks like and i hope e someone recieving it will be happy n touched too. ^^

Hmmm... Recently abit weird. No guy attraction. Nobody interest me or no one to give me have those kind of second look thoughts. Ermm.. Actually i tink its quite a good thing cos finally im no longer needing peopl n most imptly, treat all ppl equally. That kind of simple n neutral feeling is the best i tink. Most imptly, i cn come open, clean n frank with anything ppl ask me.

Actually, today i feeling quite xin fu. At lect hall, Juliana n Xia Jia came asking me to go ice skating with them. Jus cos of their invitation, actually i suddenly gt e urge to go. Budden haiz...realli tiring n changfang nt going. I abit sian. Den changfang said that she wanna bully him cos he make me sad n stuff. Seriously, who doesnt feel touched n moved by these words? Though someone may say that shes being not so sincere saying these words. However, no way am i going to doubt her words, cos i TRUST her. Furthermore shes one of those fren that though we dont go out often but we noe that we cn tell each other stuff, share same interest n care for each other. One more thing, i enjoy their company though we are not so close. They dont treat me as an outsider. Suddeny feels that actually, theres ppl who care.

Im getting out of e big black whole? Sometimes, e blackness n emptiness still fills me up unnoticingly. Well, better dont give much thought bout it. Anyway tml going out. I shld bring out my best laughter to her. Yeah!!!

End of Project handed up. Free for the moment.

Sunday, July 09, 2006
@ 9:23 AM

Recently, I have mood for nothing. Jus wanna hide in tt small small world of mine n my story book. Yeah, mayb on e outside i look ok, budden somehow, i feel that i have lost my heart. To who? When did i loose it? How did i loose it? I have completely no idea. Im nt refering that im loosing my heart to that someone. But its like im being sucked into a big black hole. Loosing my interest for things, loosing love for my loved ones, loosing my moral, my principles, my passion for life. ..Emotionless thats wat u say. Life suddenly become so colourless and dull. No one to hear me out, to understand me and worse of all, trust in no one that dey realli understand. Im f

alling into something that maybe all humans would wan to deny. Life is realli nth worth achieving for, living for but still, you are born to live and born to die. We are here, we cnt choose but to continue living it.

A normal teenager sounds like shes planning for a sucide. Hmm...Not to the extend, but jus suddenly feels that my goals, my target, my dreams have all diminish into nothing. Jus take life as life, nth to look forward to, to hope for. My ambitions have left me so far, scars that leave me so deep, past that keep haunting me.

People speak to me of faith and letting go. I realli would like to. 1 year, 2 years, 3 years passed by, still i could not use the most neutral way to look back at my past. Sometimes, i still pushed it to the back of my mind and pretend that its not there at all and choose not to face it.

Finally, i admit to myself that Im timid, lacking in courage. I dont dare to face alot of things, fearful of pain and therefore, putting up pretendence that im actually strong. Few people c through it cos i dont dare to show, having e belief that many people will attack the weakest spot of mine.

A very grey entry. Nite

End of Moodless.

Tuesday, July 04, 2006
@ 5:50 AM

Got back e last paper --> PMKT. Seriously i dont wanna get back the paper cos i realli have no confident at all. Compare to Enting and Sze May modal answer, mine is like bullshit and full of crap. Ahaha...but who expected that when i got back, i gt a shock. At firs i tot its 45/100, n i nearly cried, fear of failure. End out is over 50. Lucky me and still shocked cos i didn expect that. Hmm...seems like my hard work for this sem is not wasted? Mayb my target of 3.7 is within my reach? Overall, still quite satisfied with the results ^^.

Today he msg me while im sleeping. Its a xin lin ce yan. End out e result is that, I care bout him n he dont wanna c me. But at least this make sense on wat he send me a couple of days. Hahaha...surprisngly i dont realli care tt much. Jus scared that im realli a irritating n disgusting person. ><>
Lecture hall has a new scenary and it realli puzzles alot of us. Janice and Jacly? What bout Flo? I tot Jan dont like plastics? This wat she tell me isnt it? Strange things happening everywhere n i realli wonder what happened and the reason behind the sudden change.
Weird...Someone keep looking at us when we re-enter lect hall today. Wonder who are they looking at and why. Alot of questions marks in my mind. Waiting for the answer.
Another busy week to be...BUT maybe fri theres no ice skating n i wonder why oso. Nvm, i will find out why. K. That will be all for tonight. Not much people noe bout this blog. HeeHee. So onli to those few ba.

End of PMKT top in class

Sunday, July 02, 2006
@ 7:13 AM

That blog have been read by ppl who should not have read and have to change a new blog. Have been using it for a year or so. Seriously, nt realli use to this address but i tink i have to.
Fri night was both a sweet and disastrous night for me. He make me feel that i have hope and he smash that hope personally within few hours. We were msging each other throughout the day, though nt v often. As night falls, I dont seems to have tt weird feeling anymore and acted more naturally. He gt injured n so i asked him not to do this n tt. He replied 'Yes, madam lek'. Firs time a guy reply msg to me this way. I realli feel sweet.
Once he is online, everything changes. Telling me that hes crazy bout someone else. Its nt tt im jealous or anything. Jus tt, i dont like his tone, e way he tell me things. He treats me like an idiot and i nv felt this humiliated in my life. If he noe tt i like him, n he did this to me, den hes realli childish n ignorant. A waste of my 8 months time. Mayb hes realli not worth e while.
Sat night went for Fish&Co. Firs time eating oso. To be frank, its realli nice, mayb cos of e fact that i like seafood ba. Haiz...but expected, i spend $45 on e dinner itself. Of course, nt onli my share, but oso my bro share. My cousins, my bro n me, e 4 of us spend over $90 there. K, i noe its v ex but well sometimes, we need to pamper ourself.
Went grams hse den. E 4 of us play mahjong frm 11-bout 1plus. Then watch TV n e 4 of us headed for bed. Haiz...but its onli at ard 5 den we get to slp. Cos my bro is realli lame. He owas is, laming during dinner, during mahjong n even during bedtime. E 4 of us crap crap crap, gossip gossip gossip n finally bed.
Today is nt much fun. E younger cousins realli dunno hw to give in to each other n end out, e mahjong was nt a very enjoyable one. Nt like last night. However, get to eat alot of stuff, durians, crab and crayfish...Woohoo all nice stuff manz.
Will b joining Ice Skating Club. Well, hes one of e reason i joined. But another reason is that i wanna to make him angry like e way he pissed me too. Next is cos, changfang is there for me too. Ahaha...budden alot of $$ is needed.
KFInally, PMKT report done n handing tml. Nice days are here again. So good night to everyone and god bless u all

End of First eNtry. My secret Heaven